i am not afraid anymore.
(i was afraid ((briefly)) that i would forget this,
what i wanted to write needed
needed to write
but i was driving and i know how to remember things
((mostly
you just keep repeating them
looking into the middle distance
(((idk if that’s a real thing but go with it)))
and then it becomes a rhythm and then you can just
remember))
)
i am not afraid anymore.
i have faced the worst
the absolute worst.
i have heard the worst.
i have dated the worst
fucked the worst
married the worst.
i have been burned
i have been raped
i have been thieved.
i have lived the worst
i have died.
still,
i rise.
i have done all these things and i have fucking
FIRE in my heart and my brain and my lungs
and i am not afraid of you.
i am not afraid of you or anyone else.
especially not you.
you come try.
i dare you.
The Salty Widow 