I am feeling crazy this morning.
that in itself isn’t so unusual but this is just
This is so much on top of so much on top of so much please.
I don’t want this I don’t want this it doesn’t help to say I don’t want this until I say it I don’t want this I don’t like this I don’t want this none of it thank you please stop
stop.
to the lovers of my lover.
How I wish.
How I envy the decades you have had
learning this man, evolving with this man.
How grateful I am.
For your caretaking
your taking care of each other until I could get here.
I wasn’t ready.
So many things had to happen, first.
so many terrible things.
I arrived, breathless, on your collective doorstep.
Invited in but still a surprise.
The Salty Widow 